fuhh..minggu ni and minggu depan ada jeh test....

huhu..ready nye x agy ni haa...  =.="

gena nak wat tahh????

malam ni test CSC..hambek ko!!! sampai chap 8...

nak jawab apeh test malam karang???

gigit la jari sampai menggerutu lah aku..

stakat volatile,non volatile , memory n users tu xpe gak..

yang bahagian lain tu...

hurm...jawabnye aku main snuker la time test tu kang..

wuahuawaaaa....

(gilo x sudaa...)

heheh...  =p

sok pagi lak test CTU.... @.@

ha ni agy satu..nak wat karangan...

memang aku wat karangan citer jalan salah la nanti la kann???

hurm...apela nak jadi...

yang ustaz pown...awat x gtaw tahun depan je kata nak test esokk???

hampeeeeehhhh....

mau terkejut satu klas dengar kata sok ada test..tetiba jehh..

ngaaa...fenin2...

well..fenin2pown xleyh nak wat pa gak an..

benda tu akan jadi gak sok..

nak tak nak kene gak la berdepan ye dak???  

(aiseyh...ni lebih pada pujuk diri aku sendiri ni.hhhohohooh)

khamis malam lak...

ada agy test!

test geography lak uh.....

wahh..aku memang sukerr!!

north,south,west europe....plus mexico and the carribean...

hahahha...pergh..sikit punya gila arhh..

(pusing 360 darjah da ha kepala aku ni)

ngee....ngeri tol la ngan test2 ni....

next week lak...grr..test hape agy????

come on bring it on???

aku ready je......(dalam kata lain)

>>>>msuk hospital tg rambutan..ngeeee

(sebab overdose...xtdo malam n betapa depan buku y tebal lagi maha besaaaaaauu!!! )

ngeee....

PERHATIAN :

segala penyataan yang dibuat di atas tidak ada 

kena mengena  sama ada dengan yang dah mati ataupun yang masih hidup..

ni sume citer sal aku yang xhabes2 jadi biol and xbetol...

law xsuka sila bagi komen....

law menyampah sila get out faster dari blog ini..

takut t virus kat kepala! ngeee   =P

what is really happenin' over here...

huhu ta faham... 

fenin kefala.

my head really had bad headache right now..

adoii.....

cant think normal...

da jadi gilo da haa...

hurm...fb da tutup..hurm...

masalah dunia..geezzzz...

tutup pown sebab ada owang suh..

(aku pown ikot jelaaaaa...)

ikot??? aku ikot???  

hurm pelik an aku dengar ckap owg uh..

hurm....(sshhhh) cant tell..

actually aku pown tataw ape yang aku da karut ni..

otak pown da biol..

so entry aku pown jd biol....

disebabkan penulisan aku y sangat 'fenin kefale'

huhuhu....no words can describe my condition right now...

apela kene kan????

hurm...sambil minum air teh ais..

aku taip entry ni...huhu sedaaap..

(aish..apa kene mengena ngn teh ais lak ni??? ouh fenin2)

huuhuuhuu..kecian pada para2 pembaca...

tengok penulisan aku jea da leyh jadi biol plus fenin...

huhu xpe2 jgn wisau...

aku ada pengubatnya...

kowang g je kat negeri perak...

pastu kowang cari hotel 

"tanjung Rambutan"

kowang check in jea hotel tu...

pasti kowang ase sume biol2 tu hilang..

hehehe kat cni kowang dapat layanan 1st klaz agy....

ngeee....

(sowie banyak ngarut kat cni....aku pown da penin da ngan apa yangg aku cube sampaikan...haha..masala2..)

(hadoi!)

hurm...yeah its true...once again...i get hurt again by the same species....

sucks isn't it..once i have fall with you...i'll get hurt even more when you back off all of sudden 

just bcoz you dont have any courage..

ngee...been through this kind of situation thousand times already...i'm so tired of this....

macam nak disappear je dari sume ni...pekara yang sama berulang lagi..

you should be strong and should protect me(if you really love me like you have mean it before)..

i dont expect that you would back off  juz afraid something bad will happen..

if you love me and i also love you ...why dont we get through all kind of situation together???

why dont we be patience and just trust each other....

memang la lom masuk frasa Couple yet an..(sebab i yang xnak agy)

but didn't u promise that you'll wait for me even it take years..(you ingat agy tak pe yang you penah ckap dulu???) kenapa before this you leyh je tunggu...

you make me down taw x ??? n you really  make me lost my trust for you...

you said you really dont want to hurt me.but actually by doing this..

you have already hurting me badly...and i dont think you know what is inside my heart...

you said i dont trust u yet...u think like that becoz i made u feel like that..

i dont wanna make you feel you are at the 'Safe Zone" already ..t gerenti you cepat berubah aty...

but seriously...deep inside my heart..

i have given you my trust....you already have my heart..

hurm..but ...pity...coz now....i dont think you will know...what i feels..and how i felt for you..

hmmmm...well.. i think i have to endure it once again..just like old times...   =.="

(tried to stop my tears from falling again but i failed...coz i cant stop the tears flowing out from my eyes...geez....how can i be this weak...)

**but nevermind...i forgive you...i tak marah you...just i really kecewa sebab you memang gagal menepati pe yang i expect...

eee....kalaw kowang baca tajuk kat atas ni....

mesti kowang da andaian tersendiri da an...

hhuhu actually cuti mid sem ni xdela pendek mana pown...

ada ar seminggu gak ar cuti...

tapi bagi aku...huwaaaa..cuti gila singkat kowt...orang dah hari rabu tapi aku still maintain ahad..hahah...

memang kene gelak ngan member jeh..

adoyai kira hari pown keyh lost ke?????

gila hape???

huhuh gila sebab windu umah daaa...

xmo balik kolejjj...fenin kefaleee!!!!!

huhuhu xpuas cotieeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

cuti panjang lambat agy...huhu

seksaseksiseksus...huhuh

23 JULAI 2011

Pada pagi sabtu jam 8.30 pagi , aku baru jeh bgun tdo n pas basuh muka sume aku g arh turun dapur… nak masak nasi goreng …lepas da siap bahan2 nak masak tetiba ada nombor xdikenali kol aku…aku pown angkat :

Aku    : hello sapa ni??

S      : hello ni faizah ka??

Aku    : ye saya ..erm ni sapa?

S      : ni pakcik sham ni…

Aku    : pakcik sham mana???

S      : pakcik kawan abah ..

Aku    : oh..em..ada pa pakcik??

S      : erm anak pakcik bukak internet td..pastu dia kata pak

         wan dah meninggal..betul ka??

ZzzZZaaaappppp!! Abah meninggal????? Biar betul??? Semalam jumpa abah ..abah okey je…ish..(berdebar debar….ketaq lutut tros) ….

Aku    : pakcik biaq betoi…

S      : betoi la…anak pakcik tgk dalam internet kata pak wan

         meninggal .la ni  abah ada kat mana??

Aku    : abah ada kat umah aunty kowt.. ish pakcik..xkan kowt

         .hurm..xpala pakcik…saya kol  aunty jap .

Aku tros letak hp…(masih terkejut!!!) pastu aku tros gtaw kat kakak aku…akak aku kol aunty tak jawab hp lak…(adoiyai hati bertambah berdebar)….then aku ngn akak aku pown tros cabut naik bilik mak….gtaw kat mak…mak kata...

Mak :alaahhh tipu ja tu…xkan semlam baru ja hampa jumpa abah 

     tiba2 dia xdak???

Aku n kak fairuz : erm betul gak…

Kak fairuz :tapi tadi kol aunty..aunty x angkat pown.

Mak : dah kola bah ?

Aku : dak g..sat nak kol abah …

Tuuttt..tuttt..tuttt..tuttt….bunyi font p x angkat …

Mak : abah xangkat kan?? Tengah tidoq lagi la tu…kalau dia meninggal xkan kita xtaw kowt…depa tipu ja tu..

Pastu keadaan kembali macam biasa tp perasaan wisau x reda g…lepas tu aku pown sambung la masak…lepas abis masak n kemas sume..tetiba ja abah mai dapuq..(xtaw dari mana tah dating tiba2)

Abah : ni hampa siapkan aiq kaih..aku nak p tengok orang mati ni…

Aku : . . . . .(blurrrrrr)

(dalam aty….abah??? abah hidup g… yay!! Ya allah Alhamdulillah dah abes da segala tanda Tanya n kerisauan aku ni haa…fuhhh!!! Adess..aku xtaw la kalau pa pakcik tu habaq tadi jadi betoi..ha naya…memang janagn Tanya la awat aku tros jadi separuh xsiuman…huhu.abah walaupun garang n kadang2 wat aku sakit jiwa n tekanan yang amat tapi aku taw..abah seorang abah yang penyayang n sangat saying kat anak2 dia….aku taw macam mana kisah dia dulu dari susah sampai la dah jadi senang macam ni…

AKU SAYANG ABAH….Xmo hilang abah….     J huhu macam nak nanges ja…sedayh2…

aku seyes x paham la ngan perangai orang....

kadang2 kesalahan tu memang la ada yang kite wat tapi...

keputusan tu bukan terletak pada diri masing2 ke?? 

bukan ke diberi pilihan?????

kenapa perlu salahkan orang lain?????

benda ni pun ada punca dari diri sendiri gak kan......

menyampah tol....ap perlu wat....dah memang ada orang macam ni....

wat bodo je la...WAN SALMI FAIZAH oi....

law nak jaga aty sume orang pown memang x mampu kan...

ko dok senyap2 suda...xyah nak jga aty orang sangat ...

wat penat je....

bak kata kak ana...

kite ni x sempurna untuk nak puaskan aty manusia ni...

kita x kenal aty sebenar seseorang itu..jadi...

kuatkan la diri nak survive sebab family jaoh..bukan dekat

(actually boleyh dikatakan dekat la sbb langkawi je pown..)

huuhuhu

sakit kepala aku pikir..

k la..aku chaw lu..dah fenin sgt da ni..dah la demam..huhuhu

k ar chaw!!!

sem ni ya Allah memang sangat la seksa....macam2 dugaan yang menimpa aku...masalah aku start akhir minggu lepas...first masalah kawan2 yang berpecah belah..masing2 dah bwak haluan masing2....yang tinggal ngan aku skunk hanyalah Cik Ct Naquyah...aku memang banyak terhutang budi ngan Ct sebab dia sentiasa ada di sisi aku time susah n senang...then masalah subject lak...(macam mana la aku leyh lalai aku x g letak group lam subject account???? kan skunk aku da merana account pown xleyh amik..marketing pown xleyh amik(sebab dah drop semata mata nk add account..almaklumlah aku kan kene repeat account!! )..sakit kepala pk~~) lepas tu tarikh keramat aku!!! --> aku kene saman !!! huhu aku ingat lagi malam tu tarikh 28/6/2011...aku kene saman sebab xdak lesen...ngaa...tapi nasib baik dia x sita moto law x apalah aku nak jawab kat kawan aku tu...adoi.... :( then masalah aku lagi bertambah lepas beg duit aku lak hilag pada hari yang aku nak balik langkawi...dalam masa seminggu benda ni jadi kat aku...memang sanagt lah tekanan jiwa...tapi aku hanya boleh bersabar je la...Aku taw dugaan ni ada hikmah....tapi dalam banyak2 masalah aku...masalah kewangan la paling banyak menyumbang kesakitan kat otak aku ni ha....adoi...peant , pening n sangat tertekan taw x sem ni???? huhu..tapi xpew..asalkan kuarga aku ,kawan baik aku n Ct ada kat sisi aku..aku tabah menghadapi dugaan ni....insya'allah...

it seems the end of this month are end of everything...

well i cant do nothing right???

but the truth is..now i'm just sit here and do nothing...

i donno what to do actually..things that happen around me are really confusing me..

and it really give me a headache....

i cant accept that both of my loyal roomates are gonna separate with me after we have been 

living together since the day we entered the college...

sheeesh....i donno what to say..

my heart is full with sadness...or should i say full of sorrow...???

urgh..what am i talking about...

even if i tell u both not to go...u guys still are going...

well...nevermind....i have to endure this feeling i guess...

Goodluck to both of u....i hope u guys will live well nad happy..

and i'm really sorry along our relationship i've caused some

 chaos or something that made both of u angry with me....

hope u guys could forgive me....

i'm also sorry for all my bad behaviour(if i havesome)...

and sorry if i've been a bad friend and lastly...

i love u guys whatever u are..

hopefully we'll remain as friends till end...

today it seems something really bother me....

i'm seriously feel so sad thinkin' that

 the people that i already think like family

 seems to have backstabbed me...

kinda mad actually but...what i can do now is just be quiet as i can...

i dont wanna burst out like i've done in old days...

i fed up being treated like this...

if there's anything wrong..why dont people just speak up straight forward??

why they should burst out what they dont satisfy with someone else??

cant they just be honest and try to slow talk with the person that they dont satisfy??

i really dont understand..

its hurt me damn much until i think...

i'll be a hypocrete infront of them just to make them feel asy...

but eventually inside of me are burning with unsatisfy feelin'...

people that i think they are closed to me..

are now obviously making me think that they are really fooling round with me...

haha..funny isn't it...

nevermind..now..i wanna shut my mouth and act like a hypocrete..

its for the best...

its better than i burst out going totally mad...

                  by:  stupid idotic fooled person

Oh my..i am so pissed off right now..

wanna know why????

my lappy just get infected by virus..

too many virus..and its 'TROJAN'....

dang! i really hate when this kinda things happen right now..

i have a lots of work to get on with and it is really important!!!

why..why??? whyy?? 

oh Whyy it have to happen right now!!!

plus with my own financial problem....

i really feel shame with my friends coz they always treat me...

when i dont want they help me..

they said "what are friends for? friends are not when we were happy only..friends also are always there when we are happy nor sad.."

it really touch me when they said like that..huhu..

but trully this month is the most torture month of all..

because off too many things happen without my wants and problem that i have(the unstoppable problem since my 1st sem)..

but now things are getting worst!!

i am kinda gettin sick already but because of some support that people around gave me...

i am still able to stand eventhough it is really hard..

why does my PTPTN have problem right now..why it have to be late at this time of situation that i have???

is it the PTPTN that have problem or its just my college that create this problem for us students??

why does all the UITM and college students besides KPTM alor star dont have any problems in receiving their PTPTN??

why is it only KPTM alor star that have problem in MARA and PTPTN loan???

but really..i do not understand whether the college are the wrong party or is it the PTPTN the wrong side..grr....i am really suffering right now..with my mind could not think normally with this kind of situation...arh..i better get out 1st..next time i'll write more k..goodbye for now.... Chiow~~~

hye ya guys...huhu jmpe agy..

ngee...this time i wanna talk about my schedule are so padat...

n i dont think this sem i have time to foolin around anymore..

since the time are really running so fast...

so i better treasure it as good as possible..huhu..

my schedule are full with assignment , presentation , researching and so on...

if i just think about it..

how come i'll get through all that stuff in a short period??

Oh my gosh....seriously speaking..i really felt so tired if i think all of it...

macam sesak nafas pown ada..but what i can do..i am a student right..so...student must do whatever they have to do to gain marks so that for the final exam..the carry marks would be high...

hurm..well thats all i think i wanna share with u guys...  :)

adeyh...why paper account must be so hard???
ngeee tension tol....da la question banyak  giler....3jam je lak tu....
even ada 5 soalan pown bahagian B...but still so susah la....satu soalan pown lom tentu sejam leyh abes...grr...latihan xde pown susah macam ni....paper sem2 lepas pown xde susah macam ni...huhu ayat quetion lak memang bombastic giler...a'ah aku memang sangat2 paham la kan big words macam tu...nape soalan2 sem2 lepas ayat x bombastic pown??? eee...geram tol..huhuhu harap2 x repeat suda....cnior2 y ada lam dewan tadi pown macam xleyh wat gak...kluar2 je dr dewan sume kata gerenti repeat next sem..aahhh memang lagi down la aku gamaknya....adeyh..tensyen2.....hmmmm...  :(

ngee..hai my dear blog....windunya sama kamo...
well today i wanna story bout my sweet life...hehe npe sweet?
coz' i dont have any problem da~ no bf y leyh wat kta penin...heheh...i'm free from that prob for now..hehe...and i got my sweet dear crazy frenz...yang always beside me...dengan gelagat dorang yang gila2...hehehe love them so much...n i got my sis yang always bg support...xlupe jga pada my ABANG...hehehe such a sweet abang 4 me...bg nasihat when i really needed...so...i do have a sweet life...with many sweet people that really care bout me....what for kita cari atau ada bf yang xreti hargai kita kan...sedangkan orang yang memang ada kat sekeliling kita ni always sayang kat kita n will never ever ubah sayang dorang tu...their love will ever last...thats why...i will appreciate them as they appreciate me....i love them so much...hehe i would not gonna be sad anymore...  :)  ....the end...hehe

hahaha....setelah hampir seminggu lebih..akhirnya aku dah owkeyh!! yay!!
ngee.....aku nak berterima kaceh kat member2 aku coz dorg la wat aku hilang ase sedayh ni....haha..
aku syg korang sampai bila2 my syg2 > ct , ila , abey n others...ngee.. toche2......
arini da msuk dua ari da paper final start....heee....mgt senang gak la...tp tourism..mak ai..gagau la aku.....huhu
so susa........nk mak.......huhuhuhu nak blik laaa......hehehe(ngade2 x?????) aku mmg ngade2 pown haahhaha....
hurm...sok lak .....cuti sehari....so leyh la rehat kan otak aku yang da mmgh naik biol da ni haa..gila semacam da....ngee takot!!! hahaa.. well..ini lah aku kan?? law x gila..tu bukan aku tu....tu HANTU aku~~ hehehe...hm...so.....ada gudnews!!!! kakak aku da bli kan lappy kat aku da..ngee.....syok2nye...hehe..
ops....overdose jap....hahaha.....xpe2..blik t...aku mmg on9 gla2 larh...cangak g?? hehe....
hm...cti sem ni nak wat ape ek...wahh!!!! exam pown x abes g...da pk cti sem?? haha...xsabo laa.....hm... nak keje kowt...heheh....xkan nk g enjoy ja keje aku..wat MEMBESAUkan badan aku jer...ngee....cti xsampai pown sebulan....huhu...leteh laaaaaaaaa...huu...ni nk mogok ni.....heehehee...lawak ja.....wel..smpai cni dlu la kowt..hehe da tataw nk tlis pa da ni...welll...chalo bete.....kta p mam lu...da lapa da ni ha....  :D

i am so sorry if what i've done...hurts u...
i'm sorry if my decision have made u trouble in studies...
i'm sorry 4 everything that i done.....
but...it is your fault...u're the one who started 2 make all this kind of fussy messup.....
if u just try to be more honest this kind of problem wouldnt happened...
i do love u...seriously deeply inloved with u..but i love my family more...its okey if i lost u coz i got my family...they are more thousand times important.....u know what....i never love someone like this b4 ....u r the first person that make me feels like this...its true that i coupled many times b4 but i never get hurt so badly bcoz of a guy..n most important..i never cried only bcoz of a guy...haha but thanks 2 u..i finally cried so hard until i have lost my appetite....u're the one that i love but u're the one that make me hurts.....u have dissappointed me.....i dont mind if u have someone else but just tell me..dont be so secretive...i dont like someone lied to me....just be honest....but when this happen...i'm so shocked...i've nver think that u would do such things....seriously i'm so dissappointed with u...with ur attitude...i dont know whether in ur heart...u r seriously meant that u love me..n only me....haha..if only if i can read ur mind...hm....but i cant do anything right now coz i'm too sad and too tired with u...i'm tired with the problem that happen...i hate u..but at the same time i still love u....Am i an IDIOT? yes...i'am an idiot coz my frenz tell me to leave u n 4get u...but still i cant do what they advised me...so i am stupid....bcoz of u i be liked this...i feel sorry 4 myself but i feel more sorry 4 u...coz u dont know that Allah can see what u had done...if its true u didnt do...so its owkeyh...but if its true..hm....think about it...

kenapa aku yang dipilih untuk diuji dgn sebegini besar dugaan? .....aku xkuat......exam lak dekat...tp bnda mcm ni lak yang berlaku....inilah akibatnya...bila owang suh g stady...gatal nk bercinta.....hm..padahal sblm aku msuk kolej ...aku da janji aku xmo terlibat ngn masalah cinta...da elok2 aku okeyh je ngn stady..ni problem lak....no wonder mentor always pesan...jgn la nk bercinta law leyh break je dlu...bub masalah ni mmg susa....skali skit mmg abes ar stady...aku pown wat dek je an..almaklumlah..tyme tu mmg aku mg anti kapel...tp npe msuk sem 2 aku brubah? npe aku gatal nk kapel gak?? hm.....padan muka aku...mmg dlu aku blagak la.."xyah bercinta...wat apeh nk bercinta wat sakit aty jea....better single...that is more better..." - ayat aku dlu..hm...skarang..ha amik ko...da termasuk lam alam bercinta lg skali..n kali ni ko da mmg syg serius kat sowg tu...tp dia wat mcm ni kat ko....haa...sabar jelaaa....da la nk final da kan....em..pa leyh wat....doa je la kat ALLAH....harap aku leyh wat semua paper final ni...hopefully dis kind of annoying problem wont get me attracted out from my studies....maybe btol gak pe kata nia..aku kne off fone...xpun tukar sim wat sementara untill abes exam...atleast untuk masalah genting macam ni.....hm..ALLAH xkan duga aku smpai mcm ni skali law aku xkuat.....aku kuat...aku kne tabah.....insya'allah sgala masalah ada penyelesaian..ini hnya distraction yang dtg mengganggu lam saat kta nk study...well..after dis..mak, abah.mama.adik.abang.kakak2 ku.....faizah janji...faizah nk bersungguh2 lam study...kali ni serious...i dont wanna play anymore..tired already...i need a break.....msalah mcm ni mmg menyakitkan kepala la....why la i didnt think b4 doing things....